Where do I go...

Where do I go, which way do I turn
searching for that love I so desperately yearn
fading memories of a past I'd soon forget
isolated and alone waiting for the one not met.

Is she just a vision or does she really exist
illusion of a fantasy like a ship in the mist
the truth of it all remains to be seen
for in this moment of time I can only dream.

Laying awake I stare into the night
doom and dread surround, like the demons I fight
river of emotions flow like a swift moving tide
spiraling so fast downward I slide.

Will ever I find that peace, I do not know
breaking down more with each passing blow
desperation and pain a part of everyday life
words not spoken that cut like a knife...

LOST

I thought it was a dream, I thought it wasn't real But pain really hurts and its really how I feel Memories keep coming back, and so do all of the tears I hear your voice, and as quick as the smile came, it quickly disappears I don't know what is happening, because you always held my hand You said you would never let go, that is what I don't understand So many promises you made, and more of them broken Lost and confused, feels like I'm choking A lot of things I did not say Now I can't find my way I can not start over because I don't know where to start I guess that is what happens when someone breaks your heart If we are suppose to follow our dreams, why can't I follow you Because now I am so lost, I wish you were lost without me too..