I Wish I Was Dreaming ..

This one's for you Pari....
I understand ur pain, and just wish if u could had her...

I wish I was dreaming,
When I heard the word “No.”
I wish I was dreaming,
The day I let you go.
I wish I was dreaming,
That time I did you wrong.
I wish I was dreaming,
The moment I knew I didn’t belong.
I wish I was dreaming,
When I continued knowing what I knew,
I wish I was dreaming,
The day I professed my love to you.
Because you never smiled back,
Nor did you even wave.
I just wish I was dreaming,
When I saw my grave ..

I Really Can't Do ..

My constant wish is to hold you
A simple desire that makes me blue,
My love I have is out of the world
It takes a lifetime to stop this swirl...

Even if I die, my life will go on
Gripping on my feelings that move along,
Finding myself in pathetic pain
Because my love for you increased again...

Holding you tight deep down my bossom
Fearing I might loosen my grip,
Do not know why I do this
I only know, you! I shouldn’t miss...

My strange feelings dominate me
I depend on them not breaking free,
They enchant me, when on my own
By the thoughts of you, I’m not alone...

Is this what one calls real love?
I tried to forget the message sent from above
But why is that I want only you?
Forget her Boy! that’s something I can’t do...

Don't Hurt Me, I'm Already DEAD ...

Lonely and hurt,
Broken I remain
Residing in hell,
living in pain…

Masked by lies,
I slowly fade away…
The nightmare I live with,
each and every day

The meaning of it all,
to which my mind attends,
Has not one answer
that I fully comprehend…

The bottom of my mind
holds the answers which I call,
I keep reaching towards it
in this never-ending fall…

“Stay strong and keep going,
it’s never too late”…
No one seems to realize
that it’s not worth the wait

There’s no such thing
as help outside of your mind,
It’s you against yourself,
with your demons intertwined

It’s a battle, hard fought,
but never to be won…
Either way you end up losing
when it’s all said and done

“Too late” came and passed…
and, of me, nothing more
I wrote my own ending,
and I shut my own door…


“Live your life to its fullest”
that’s what they all said,

You Never Taught Me ..

My eternal desire is to hold you
But it seems to me so hard to do,
Is something wrong with my love?
I tried alot to reason it out..!!
Every single day i made an effort
Yet i found myself lacking the force
Finally i lay on bed in pathetic pain
My love increases but nothing i gain
Am i holding you with me so tight?
Although i want to let it go every night
But when the hold of my feelings loosen
I am scared to find myself alone in the end
These feelings dominate me in unique way
Without them i’m a walking dead everyday
A grown-up who doesn’t know to live on my own
Because you never taught me to live alone!

If Only You Could Read A Tear ..

If ma tears could talk
Wat would they display?
Thousands of words,
Not difficult to say
They’d whisper, “am sorry!”
Wen am wrong n you’re ryt.
They’d scream, “am scared!”
Wen am all alone in da middle of da nyt.
They do talk,
But they reveal too much
They’re nt hidden
Just wiped away by ur gentle touch.
They’d exclaim, “am happy!”
Wenever you’re around
They’d sigh, “am sad!”
Wen am feeling down.
They do talk
Won’t u listen?
Wat u’ve been missin!
They’d reply, “am lonely!”
Wen am thinking abt u.
They do talk
But u can’t hear
A single word they’d say.
If only u could read a tear
Instead of wiping it away!

Wish You Could Read My Tears ..

If my tears could talk
They would utter your name,
And tell you stories
That will put you in shame...

They would wish to escape
When I cry at nights,
But they fail to flee
Without shining my cheeks bright...

They always flow in groups
To express their tales,
But they never vanish
Even when wiped again & again...

They flow even when happy
The moment you are there,
They rush when I am sad
When they find you nowhere.....

Kill Me ..

Can’t you see my heart bleeds?
By the crush of your words,
As many times you repeat
Because You feel I’m not worth...

The soft and innocent heart of mine
Is now frozen like cold ice,
The fear you see inside
Is same as yours when you realized...

Do kill me by your hands
Alive, I don’t seem to succeed,
The destinations that I reached
Is not right coz I bleed!!

Now it’s all up to you to decide
Which direction should I hide?
The twinkling stars above will guide
And bring me straight to your side!!

Go away Sleepless Nights ..

Oh my sleepless nights
Cruel demons everyday i fight,
No weapons i could shield
My lonely bed is my battle field...

Protecting myself by my cover
Drifting in sleep with my lover,
Pillow drenched with my tears
Yet i’m envelopped by my fears...

Around is the night so calm
Wanting to fall in your arms,
So tiring i can’t sleep
All i do is only weep...

Waiting for tomorrow, the sun to shine
To stop the battle in this heart of mine,
Wanting to escape from this sleepless night
In order to avoid all my hopeless fights...

My Last Kiss ..

Entrapped in this suffocation
I feel an eery lurch on my skin,
All I wish is a silent death
When I see no joy but pain within...

As though this fate is made for me
Beaten a thousand times brutally,
Not a second passed without thinking
Yet to others I am day dreaming...

Waiting for the twilight to peep
Wishing I could sneak out flying,
Into this long endless sky
But instead I lie on my bed dying...

Grasping for Air in the cold night
The air you exhale only can save me,
Please come and give my last kiss
Perhaps I will survive again slowly...